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Akira Kurusu ([personal profile] stealhearted) wrote2021-02-11 10:02 pm
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are you hurting the one you love?

psst psst [clicks tongue for akechi, sets out curry as a treat]--
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-12 05:35 am (UTC)(link)
[When your entire life structure was built around always having a plan, suddenly being made entirely incapable of having one was not something easily overcome. He had never been good with spontaneity, not to say he wasn't a quick-thinker. But there was no amount of quick-thinking that could sort him out with this one.]

[It was early March when he found himself wandering through the doorway of Leblanc. He didn't have an exact concept of time, or the date, despite wearing a watch which told him both, but he chose the same seat at the bar he'd always sat at without thinking, and was presented with a cup of coffee before he'd had a chance to stop marveling that he was sitting there at all and order one. Sojiro Sakura wasn't someone he ever expected to trust in any way, but the man brewed the cup and set it in front of him, only to return to his paper without a word, so he figured there was at least something to be said for that.]

[The bell on the door only chimed twice-- once for an elderly couple of regulars, and then again for the very Phantom that had drawn him here, and both times Akechi's cup rattled in its saucer with how he jolted in place. He knew Akira's silhouette from the corner of his eye well enough that he didn't have to turn when he came in, so instead he just took a sip of his coffee and leaned back in his stool.]


Welcome home, [He said, and his voice sounded like a years-old cellphone voicemail recording, being played back like evidence. That made sense, he figured. He just hadn't figured out which crime he was being tried for.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-12 05:57 am (UTC)(link)
Mmn, [He concedes easily enough, and he can't decide if it's like him or not (he's not sure he knows which form of "like him" to mimic, anymore), hefting his cup for a moment.] Let me finish this before it cools.

[And he does, but he takes his time. It's the only measure of control he has over this at all, because he doesn't even feel like he had control over arriving. Only when the cup is empty, a pale ring of dark at the deepest point of the small cup, does he set it down and shift, sliding carefully off the stool. He goes for a briefcase he doesn't have, passes the startled halt off as bending to dust a scuff from his shoe, and inclines his head toward Akira.]

[He's very specifically studying the space between his eyes, the bridge of his glasses, to avoid deciphering the expression in his eyes.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-12 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[It was really more about putting off following him and being alone with him, and Akechi was well aware that Akira probably knew that. At least he didn't put up a fuss. The removal of his glasses catches Goro off-guard and puts tension into his shoulders, subtly, because it didn't look like much but the former detective knew better. A display like that from Akira Kurusu held deeper meaning than just removing the oversized lenses he didn't even need-- it was a gesture of good faith. Of trust, even, wordlessly claiming he didn't need a mask around him like he chose to want around others.]

[It soured his stomach just enough that he stood very still until Akira was to the stairs before he followed him, moving carefully and taking the stairs at a much less childish single-step pace.]

[He never quite knew what to think of the attic of Leblanc where Akira lived. It was quaint in its own way, dusty but remarkably homely, much like the boy himself. It bothered him, to some degree, that it wasn't a space they removed their shoes, but he supposed at the end of the day it was still in some way a public establishment. He stood stiffly at the top of the stairs and surveyed the area, taking definite note of the way the houseplant against the right wall always looked fresh and alive despite its surroundings. The room was unchanged, mostly, since the last time Akechi had seen it, and he couldn't quite decipher if that was a good thing or a bad thing.]


My apologies for ambushing you before classes are out for the year. [Keeping it clinical kept a safe distance between them. He knew better-- Akira knew he had nowhere else to go, let alone anywhere safe, so it wasn't like there was much point to putting up the barrier of politeness, of only "stopping by" for some inane reason. But Akechi Goro was a cornered animal when he was afraid, so he chose to display some manner of togetherness to try and hide that very concept.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-12 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's a dangerous question, and he focuses on the houseplant to avoid making any form of eye contact. Despite that, his stress is still evident in the way he rolls the pad of his thumb against his middle finger, stressing the leather of his glove just enough that it resisted the motion. He smiles anyway.]

I haven't decided, [He doesn't know--] So I would suggest you being your least grating if you want a positive result.

[He strides to the plant, not actually interested but pretending to be.] I never assumed you one for a green thumb.
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-12 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[His jaw clenches at the mention of Okumura Haru, and he raises his eyes without moving his head. It results in him looking equal parts angrier and more tired than he is.]

And? She's a fool to feel relief for the state of her father's murderer. [In the time he's spent separated from the only group of people he could have ever entertained calling "friends", he's started to realize that the anger is defensive. He's not always truly angry, he just lashes out because it's easier than facing whatever it is that he's been presented with. It's cowardly, and he knows that, but he'd rather be a coward than be open with people who should, in all regards, hate him for everything he is.]

[He thinks maybe, the anger is also to cover the fear of the notion that deep down, he knows they don't.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-12 10:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't speak like you know me. [He clicks his tongue against his teeth, turning his head to the side in a way that almost looks like he spat the words onto the wood floors. He's only so defensive because Akira is right, but if he doesn't keep up some kind of appearances now, he may never know them again, so he injects the venom into his words like a lifeline.]

[A steadying breath, and he stands a little straighter, adamantly refusing to meet Akira's gaze. If he only came here to spit venom, why did he bother coming here? He can't answer the question, himself, and it sours his stomach all over again, so he flicks his hand outward in a dismissive gesture.]
Anyway, what are your plans moving forward? Your time in the Phantom Thieves is over, so I have to admit curiosity about your next move.
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-13 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
[He does know him, which ultimately is most of why Akechi insists he doesn't. If he fights the notion hard enough, surely it would cease to be true. If he knew Akira's aim was to strip him away to nothing, until he couldn't lie anymore, he'd probably laugh. Even Akira Kurusu wouldn't be able to tolerate him without his fabricated spine, he was sure of it. If you took away all his lies and his put-upon confidence, tugged the loose string of his sweater until he unraveled, he would be a deplorably pitiful thing. Rotten at his core and disgusted with himself as much as he was with the world around him, so much he was sure even this strange, curious saint of a boy who claimed himself his rival would discard him.]

[The constant push and pull of how much that terrified him and how desperately he wanted it was frightening in and of itself.]

[His expression sours at the mention of Akira's parents, and he has to bite his tongue to not speak callously. He had no right to infringe upon Akira's wishes-- after all, his own wish had been demanding the boy allow him to return to the one choice he'd been able to make consciously in his life. Somehow, he didn't figure Akira's decision to return to his parents was one built on control like Akechi's had been.]


After living in the city a year, readjusting will be challenging. [He doesn't let the hint of disappointment color his words. Or so he hopes.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-13 04:26 am (UTC)(link)
[He makes an ugly sound, immediately in regard of the question, waving his hand through the air like he's trying to dismiss it entirely.]

I have literally no obligation to tell you that. [He doesn't know, Akira. He has no idea, for the first time in his life, he has no plan, and it terrifies him.] Particularly not with you skipping town. [He may have hissed that a touch more than was strictly necessary.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-15 05:08 am (UTC)(link)
[You told him you kept the glove, Akira. He may have not given it to you, it may have not exactly been a gift, but nothing really is, coming from Akechi.]

[He makes a very strange sound, then-- You didn't have an obligation to tell me you were okay. It catches him off-guard, and his eyebrows shoot toward his hairline, his jaw dropping about a centimetre as tries to make a derisive little snort while the rest of him is too stunned that Akira was bold enough to say that to his face. It results in what is best described as a squawk, brief and quiet, his figurative feathers ruffled and puffed to at least three times their usual size by the sheer offense he's been dealt.]

[For starters, he had to wonder what about his coming to Leblanc gave Akira any sort of idea that he was okay. Let alone that it was to tell him as much. He stretches his fingers toward the floor, closes his eyes, fills his lungs, and curls his hands into fists so tight his arms shake, just barely. Blunt fingernails leave little half-moon indentations in his palms while he holds the breath, and then releases it, letting his fingers stretch back toward the floor. This happens twice before he opens his eyes, raising his head and smiling. It isn't an honest smile, but it isn't the ugly, cruel little quirk of his lips he was more prone to recently.]


Then I'd say you haven't a reason at all, let alone a good one. [More than anything, more than Akira and his stupid accommodating kindness and his cozy little cafe loft and more than the entire Phantom Thieves, collectively, Akechi loathes that he can't hide the shake to his voice.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-15 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
[His hands curl back into fists and he pivots, before anything else has the chance to betray him, and makes a stiff bid for the stairs.] If you'll excuse me, I hadn't planned to be here so long. [Or at all.] Do have a good trip home, I'm sure--

[Six steps from the top, and two down the flight into Leblanc itself, he walks directly into nothing at all, another squawk of sound leaving him as his foot drops to the next step and the rest of him collides with what certainly feels like at least six inches worth of one-way mirrors from interrogation rooms long behind him. He reels back, overbalancing, and winds up dropping directly onto his ass on the landing separating the two short staircases leading from Leblanc to the storage space above it that Akira occupied.]

What fucking nonsense is--?! [There's nothing there, but he absolutely just walked into something. The staircase shook, he veritably ricocheted off of it, and now he's sitting on his ass in the stairwell of a cafe he never planned to be in again in the first place, staring in impotent rage at absolutely nothing and trying to figure out when, exactly, Akira Kurusu managed to trip him up enough to place a literal invisible barrier wall in his goddamn staircase, just so he couldn't leave.]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-15 09:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's a slight snarl of sound to the question and Akechi smacks Akira's offered hand away. Oh, how he wishes it were that easy, to just take the hand offered to him and allow Akira to help him to his feet. He folds his feet back under him and stands, dusting himself off with a scowl, and shoots the thief an icy frown, reaching out toward what moments ago was a wall.]

[His hand goes through it, as it's just air with Akira within arm's length again, and his shoulders pull tight and he takes an adamant few steps downward, bewildered.]


There-- you heard that, right? I hit something. [He's not crazy. Right?]
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[personal profile] forfeited 2021-02-15 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[Akechi makes a mortified yowl of a sound, squashed in his throat because he does know how to be polite enough to at least try to not disrupt Sojiro's business, empty as it may be. As soon as Akira isn't dragging him he's pulling his arm away and dusting himself off, swatting at the air between them and scowling, shoulders bunched up near his ears.]

Yes, it would seem that way. So my next question is simply this: what are you playing at? [Because it was easier if this was Akira's fault, naturally.]
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[He has to consciously try to not snarl at him for the ease of his response-- that wasn't what he meant and they both knew it, but that was just... how Akira did things. He draws in a careful breath, exhales, and turns toward the stairs again. This time, he splays one hand out in front of him as he goes, taking the stairs one at a time until at roughly the same spot, his hand meets resistance.]

[He presses on it, first gently, gradually adding more pressure until both his hands are pressed flat to it, and he's leaned his entire upper body into it. He grinds his teeth and swears softly under his breath, standing back on the stairs properly and angling himself toward Akira to call for his attention.]


This is utterly preposterous.