I don't think you are. I think -- are we doing the science explanations? PTSD, and that disorder kids get when they're not hugged enough. Reactive attachment, I think. I was reading about it once, [ when he was 12 and beginning to think there was something capital-W-Wrong with him ], and it's like, kids that never ask for help, have poorly controlled emotions or control their emotions to the point of not having them, fail to bond with caregivers or other people...

It's not that I enjoy -- that [ there's a hand gesture here, to communicate 'that' meaning 'everything I just said about our shared trauma' ] -- but it's like.

If we did date. Then ten years in the future, we'd be out to dinner and you'd be perfectly pleasant to the waiter and then you'd turn to me to insult someone's shoes, and that's -- what I like. I think everyone does that.