Don't... [He pats at Akira's jaw, absently, trying to convince him to not look away, even though it's all he's been doing for hours, probably. When he does, and when he's somehow even more beautiful with his eyes full of tears and his stupid, stupid eyelashes pretty and wet, Akechi thinks he stops breathing again. Knows he does when Akira gives him this whole spiel, things about him he likes.]
[He isn't a pretty crier like Akira is, his whole jaw tensing up, and then his shoulders, and he shakes his head as he lowers it away from him again. Hypocrite, trying to keep Akira from looking away only to do the same immediately again.]
You've never-- God, Kurus-- Akira. [The name is strange on his tongue, and he's not sure he can use it again anytime soon, but he looks up again and this time the tears run tracks down his face instead of dripping onto the ground.] You've never let me down even when it came to me shooting you in the goddamn head.
[But he pulls his hands away from his face anyway, shaking his head and not stepping out from under Akira's hands, but becoming much smaller under them.] ...you just. Have to be lying. My laugh is fake, any teasing was just a failed attempt at actually hurting you, minor inconveniences can be much more major depending on the person, when have I ever commented on TV shows...? [He looks back up, shaking his head for the millionth time.] I can't very well have pitied you, because I've never been anywhere but hiding in your shadow, and if I don't maintain some kind of pride the likelihood of me disintegrating like ashes are outrageously high.
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[He isn't a pretty crier like Akira is, his whole jaw tensing up, and then his shoulders, and he shakes his head as he lowers it away from him again. Hypocrite, trying to keep Akira from looking away only to do the same immediately again.]
You've never-- God, Kurus-- Akira. [The name is strange on his tongue, and he's not sure he can use it again anytime soon, but he looks up again and this time the tears run tracks down his face instead of dripping onto the ground.] You've never let me down even when it came to me shooting you in the goddamn head.
[But he pulls his hands away from his face anyway, shaking his head and not stepping out from under Akira's hands, but becoming much smaller under them.] ...you just. Have to be lying. My laugh is fake, any teasing was just a failed attempt at actually hurting you, minor inconveniences can be much more major depending on the person, when have I ever commented on TV shows...? [He looks back up, shaking his head for the millionth time.] I can't very well have pitied you, because I've never been anywhere but hiding in your shadow, and if I don't maintain some kind of pride the likelihood of me disintegrating like ashes are outrageously high.