Mostly because of me. [He spits it, closing his eyes and curling his free arm tightly around his ribs.] The conspiracy is overall a non-issue, they can't do any worse than I've already been dealt. I don't want to perpetuate your concept of there being an "us" to cause an issue.

[He says it all in one breath, and when he's done he wheezes softly, swallowing and laying his palm over Akira's eyes.] I haven't allowed myself closeness to others since I was very young. I can't be a part of an "us". [The hand over Akira's eyes becomes important because his eyes absolutely mist over.]