You're the only thing he had to use against me. [ Akira laughs, but it's wet, and he squeezes his eyes shut so he doesn't wind up having the eighty-sixth breakdown of the past 48 hours. He can't handle this anymore. ]
I've always -- I want to be someone for everyone to rely on. Whenever I see someone that needs help, I just -- more than anything, I want them to be helped, and there's never anyone else to do it. Even if it gets me into trouble. Especially if it gets me into trouble. [ That's another laugh, but it's a little more hysteric this time and a little less well disguised. ]
I just wanted to -- I just wanted you to be there, because you're the only one that's ever -- there's never been anyone else that wanted to help me, but I thought maybe I was the only one that wanted that, that I was just making your decisions for you and putting you in that role and maybe I am no better than Maruki because I know you're the only thing that ever makes me waver and I still can't stop-- wanting--
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I've always -- I want to be someone for everyone to rely on. Whenever I see someone that needs help, I just -- more than anything, I want them to be helped, and there's never anyone else to do it. Even if it gets me into trouble. Especially if it gets me into trouble. [ That's another laugh, but it's a little more hysteric this time and a little less well disguised. ]
I just wanted to -- I just wanted you to be there, because you're the only one that's ever -- there's never been anyone else that wanted to help me, but I thought maybe I was the only one that wanted that, that I was just making your decisions for you and putting you in that role and maybe I am no better than Maruki because I know you're the only thing that ever makes me waver and I still can't stop-- wanting--
[ He should probably be breathing more. ]