[ Is it that bad? For a moment, Akira looks like he's been struck -- and then he manages to recover, letting his gaze shutter away his feelings as he turns the stovetop entirely off. He gazes unseeingly at the pot for a long moment, and then finally, vaguely: ]
It's ready whenever the rice is done. [ And then he steps away to go to the bathroom, because it feels like there's fire lancing through his skin until he can't breathe through the pain of it. He waits until the door is closed to rock back against the wall and press the heel of his hand into his eyes while he tries to get control over himself.
It's fine. It's fine. It's fine. He just has to do what he always does. He's fucked everything up and maybe it's beyond repair, now, maybe he's lost the only chance at having the first thing he's ever really wanted, and maybe that's his fault for taking so long to decide he wanted it.
It's fine. It's fine. Make a plan; stick to the steps. Don't cause trouble, don't make any demands for yourself --
It takes him longer than he'd like, but eventually, he wraps up all of his feelings and manages to shove them into a lockbox inside of himself. It's fine. He has things to do.
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It's ready whenever the rice is done. [ And then he steps away to go to the bathroom, because it feels like there's fire lancing through his skin until he can't breathe through the pain of it. He waits until the door is closed to rock back against the wall and press the heel of his hand into his eyes while he tries to get control over himself.
It's fine. It's fine. It's fine. He just has to do what he always does. He's fucked everything up and maybe it's beyond repair, now, maybe he's lost the only chance at having the first thing he's ever really wanted, and maybe that's his fault for taking so long to decide he wanted it.
It's fine. It's fine. Make a plan; stick to the steps. Don't cause trouble, don't make any demands for yourself --
It takes him longer than he'd like, but eventually, he wraps up all of his feelings and manages to shove them into a lockbox inside of himself. It's fine. He has things to do.
He knows better than to lean on anyone else. ]