[He makes a sound that isn't quite words, immediately resisting Akira's contact but only briefly. He stays tense until his hands are claimed, and he's told to breathe and he makes another sound, stops, tries again.]
Sorry-- I'm sorry. [He can't pinpoint what he's apologizing for, the breakdown or something else, because it feels like there's more to apologize for but there shouldn't be. He doesn't know of anything outside of this current moment that he has to apologize to Akira for. But it's pressing, it's like the need to apologize is clawing it's way out of his chest with the tears he can't convince to stop.]
[He angles himself oddly at the Featherman question, makes a curious sound that's too thick and stuck in his throat, swivels a little at the waist and gives up. He reclaims his hands in favor of snaking his arms beneath Akira's, curling into him at a strange angle and letting his knees lean against the table. It's not comfortable at all, but he needs the warmth, he thinks.] R, Phoenix Ranger Featherman R. [He thinks he understands why Akira is asking, so he latches on to the question and takes great care in keeping his voice as clear as he can when he answers. It's important, somehow.]
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Sorry-- I'm sorry. [He can't pinpoint what he's apologizing for, the breakdown or something else, because it feels like there's more to apologize for but there shouldn't be. He doesn't know of anything outside of this current moment that he has to apologize to Akira for. But it's pressing, it's like the need to apologize is clawing it's way out of his chest with the tears he can't convince to stop.]
[He angles himself oddly at the Featherman question, makes a curious sound that's too thick and stuck in his throat, swivels a little at the waist and gives up. He reclaims his hands in favor of snaking his arms beneath Akira's, curling into him at a strange angle and letting his knees lean against the table. It's not comfortable at all, but he needs the warmth, he thinks.] R, Phoenix Ranger Featherman R. [He thinks he understands why Akira is asking, so he latches on to the question and takes great care in keeping his voice as clear as he can when he answers. It's important, somehow.]